Tricia's successful surgery

After several months of dilly-dallying my guard dog's needed surgery for her Pyometra, I finally decided go on with it last March 19 in UP Vet Med Hospital.

Tricia, my 10-year old dog was diagnosed with Pyometra, an infection in the uterus and the only cure is surgery. But given her age, it would be a risky procedure. It took me weeks of check-ups/blood tests to finally convince myself that surgery was the only way.

Even on the dreaded day, I was trying to delay it. I arrived an hour late from my appointment and was asking too many questions that the Vet Dr. told me that I am causing negative vibes and stress to Tricia. I tried to take deep breaths and to think of positive thoughts.

Before the surgery, I kept on saying to Tricia that I will see her after her surgery and reminded her of her promise, 'to stay with me until her longest dog years'.

I kept on praying and literally did not sit down during the whole surgery. It was just 30 minutes or so.



Tricia while waiting for the lab results before the procedure.



The operating room.



Tricia with dextrose and 1st shot of anesthesia.



On-going surgery.



After the surgery, awake and recovering.

I am happy that I decided to push through with the procedure. Her uterus was really infected and needed to be taken out.

Tricia is recovering well and I am happy to see her relieved and happy.

Drive is to bike

I want to drive and I mean drive my own car. This has been a pending task since I don’t know when, part of my resolutions every year. I made some progress, a little, I have my license, took 2 driving lessons and even hired a driver to teach me. But when I got pregnant and was on bed rest for most of the months I lost all the courage again.

I remember when I was a kid, I wanted to learn to ride a bike no matter what. I didn’t care how many times I fell or hurt myself. I just wanted to ride. I demonstrated that much passion and courage that I learned fast and was good at it.

I wish I could still display that same passion in driving. Now, I am taken by fear, especially seeing all the crazy drivers out there.

But last January, I decided that I ‘would’ drive no matter what. Hah!

I made the first step already. I renewed my license yesterday so I hope I will be driving by the end of my leave.

This is the image in my vision board.

Time

Time. Tick tock. . . what are you doing now? 24 hours per day seems a lot of time.

In a day, someone can fall in love, discover a new thing, be disappointed, commit a blunder, make a decision, be a star, leave the earth.

The world is round, 7 continents and 196 countries. No matter the time difference, what are you doing with your time?

Time flies so fast when you are engrossed with something. Tomorrow may come and not. What are you doing now? Seize the day, they say but how? Make a decision to do what matters most to you today.

I often sit and wonder what other people are doing with their time while I'm just staring into space. People have different interests or shall I say mission and passions in life. Others are born geniuses, leaders, followers, rich, poor and so on but what matters is what you do with your life.

Am I using my time here on earth wisely? Why can other people be great while I just stay in the sidelines watching them? What do I need to do? Am I just meant to be like this? Or can I be the active participant in this world? I would like to be.

I would like to do something worthwhile and help others.

I envy people who are so sure of what they want to be even at an early age. It didn’t come to me as I expected. Until now, I have to admit, I am still finding my mission and passion in life. Until then will I be able to take an active role in this life.

But slowly, I am jotting down my passions and that includes writing (ever since elementary), Yoga, helping other people and “be a healing presence in the world” (I like this. I came across this in one of my readings about Yoga). I don’t know yet how I can marry all of these things and earn a living. Of course I am concerned with that. But they say you have to live your passions first then money will come. Let’s see.

I have always gotten what I wanted especially if I'm definite of it. I am that stubborn and I will do everything I can to get what I want. But that's the trick, I need to know what I want first.

I am at the stage in my life where I want clear directions, giving glory to God.

I am reminiscing, reflecting on past experiences, hoping to find my passion and make good use of my time here on earth.

Good luck to me.

*image from www.landingnet.co.uk/blog/internet-time-wasting/