They say it would be better to see your baby than to grieve for someone you just imagine. It would also help to touch and even bury your baby. Good thing I deceided to see my baby and bring him/her home with me.
After our Sunday mass, my parents, Dominique and I asked the priest to bless my baby and seek advise on burial. The priest suggested to bury my baby in our memorial lot, no frills but just to dig and lay my baby there to rest. My baby was less than 20 weeks so the hospital did not issue any death certificates.
I spent time alone to touch and talk to my baby before we finally laid her to rest in Loyola Memorial Park in Sucat, Paranaque. Below is the eulogy for my angel.
To my 16-week old baby, my angel,
I love you more than words can say.
You came as a surprise to me and Dominique,
A honeymoon baby, we would like to think.
We did our best to make you healthy,
Regular check-ups, maintaining a healthy diet, walking like a lola, preventing stress,
Shopping for a good OB to take care of us
But God had other plans,
When I have finally accepted and was proud of being pregnant,
He decided to call you back home
God had his reasons that I may not yet comprehend at the moment,
But I hope in time.
I will never forget you.
16 weeks maybe short but to me, they were the best weeks of my life.
Thanks for making us feel parents even for just a little while
And for making your presence felt even though I cannot feel your movements yet
You taught me to be sensitive and to appreciate babies and kids in general
I guess, you are just making me ready for my future babies someday.
I love you forever and will never forget you.
4 comments:
I'm crying. deeply crying. I'm offering all of these tears to all the unborn children.
Hi Kim! I found your blog while doing one of my internet searches. I am so sorry to hear about your baby. :( Stay strong. God bless you and your family.
Oops Kim sorry I didnt put my name. Hehe my bad. Its apples. You can check me out at http://apples-pie.com/blog.
I also found this blog while searching for spiritual words to share with my sister that has lost her baby after only one week of life. I am truly sorry for your loss and grateful for your web page so I could share my thoughts.God bless you and your family.
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